Monday, January 19, 2009

.:Telling me softly you love me so:.

This day, my friend Gina and I were driving near/around MLK on MLK Day, and there was the voice of MLK blasted over some loud speaker. It seemed a bit eerie, but yet, of course, strikingly appropriate. I haven't been able to shake that voice from my head all day.

I am officially satisfied with my own hot chocolate over the hot chocolate of others.

For some reason, I feel as though I am in this transitional state again. My parents aren't exactly thrilled about the neighborhood and the house I live in, and they are pushing me to move - anywhere in the country, I've been told. I'm open to it, but I don't feel that it is right for me at this moment. I am absolutely enthralled with this city and the things that I do here, but I also feel like I'm learning so much. I need a little more time before I feel ready to leave this place for more than even a month. It's not that Austin needs me. I need Austin. It's a parasitic relationship this place and I have. I'm no where near full.

I think I will write something grand tonight. It's a good night for that.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

.:Sleep out by the ocean down in California, Dream until your whole world's spinnin':.

Dear Love,

I'm really putting you on hold this time. I'm tired of looking for you. I have other things to concentrate on right now.

It's not that I hate you. That isn't it at all. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I just want you to find me this time.

Hopefully, this time you'll understand.



Saturday, January 10, 2009

.:So, go on and let your heart get broken:.

The past few weeks of traveling have given me such a sense of warmth and love. I've been able to visit my closest friends (most of them) and share moments with them where I get this great feeling that they have been in my life and will continue to be for a very long time. We all have grown so much in the passing years, and I love how the closest people to me are the ones I have picked up with them where we left off like it was nothing. I have held many hands, hugged so much, and kissed them before we departed. Here's to wishing for each and every visit to be just as sweet and memorable.

I am in awe of how fortunate I am to have such kind, loving, caring friends and family. I feel that I am someone completely undeserving of these beautiful people, but I will do whatever is in my power to make sure they know they are deeply treasured and continually thought of.